Events
People I have just one question; why does everything happen on one day? There are 6 other days of the week, how about spacing them out some? Take Sat for example, I have to help a friend put together a bday party for her 9 year old son (which I really don't mind but ten 9 year old boys... shudder), M is throwing a bbq (of course durring the same time as the bday party). So for this I think I can finish helping L with the party, drop by M's to put in an appearance and run home to put on a dress for a wedding that night. Ok the wedding is only a bfd because I paid 60 bucks to be there... it is Tony and Tina's. At the same time as TT, LL is taking hubby (R) to the pub for a little going away bash cuz he leaves for a week on Sun. Urgh just once I would like to space things out a bit.
Now we move on to next Sat. W and I are planning a girls night that night since R is out of town. It is also LP's bday and so she is having a huge party at her place. Ok this much is doable, both are in one city, just go from one to another. But then my cuz has to go and plan my aunt and uncle bday the same night in a suburb like half an hour away! Jesus Christ. Fuck it!
4/27/2006
4/26/2006
People
Today I met the new owner of our company. We had a large meeting and listened to him toot his own horn for an hour and a half. Everyone I work with loved him. I thought he was an arrogant ass and that most people need to look beyond superficial charm. If there is nothing beneath it why should I like the person??? Some people like people immediatly. Not me, if you want me to like you, you need to give me a reason to like you.
On another note about people, I decided to test myself and go to the pub by myself last night. I walked in, said hello to D and ordered a beer. That shocked her enough, then she realized I was by myself. It was actually good, entertaining people. The hot firefighter (FNC) and the ugly brigade of mothers and daughters. Fuck it.
Today I met the new owner of our company. We had a large meeting and listened to him toot his own horn for an hour and a half. Everyone I work with loved him. I thought he was an arrogant ass and that most people need to look beyond superficial charm. If there is nothing beneath it why should I like the person??? Some people like people immediatly. Not me, if you want me to like you, you need to give me a reason to like you.
On another note about people, I decided to test myself and go to the pub by myself last night. I walked in, said hello to D and ordered a beer. That shocked her enough, then she realized I was by myself. It was actually good, entertaining people. The hot firefighter (FNC) and the ugly brigade of mothers and daughters. Fuck it.
4/25/2006
Randomness 2
So C calls and tells me to meet everyone at Starbucks at 7:30. So me being me I arrive at 7:25, get my coffee and grab a table outside. I figure they will be there in a couple, so I'll just sit back and people watch. This girl is sitting accross from me when a but picker comes walking up. She offers him a full smoke (dumbass, that keeps them coming back). So she reached into her Team Canada Olympic bag and pulls out a pack of American cigarettes. She then tells him that she has tons of American spirit. Anyone else seeing some contradictions here..... Then by 7:45 there is still no one there. What the fuck.... why bother being on time.
So C calls and tells me to meet everyone at Starbucks at 7:30. So me being me I arrive at 7:25, get my coffee and grab a table outside. I figure they will be there in a couple, so I'll just sit back and people watch. This girl is sitting accross from me when a but picker comes walking up. She offers him a full smoke (dumbass, that keeps them coming back). So she reached into her Team Canada Olympic bag and pulls out a pack of American cigarettes. She then tells him that she has tons of American spirit. Anyone else seeing some contradictions here..... Then by 7:45 there is still no one there. What the fuck.... why bother being on time.
4/22/2006
Update on "Circles"
So one of my sisters, CH calls me today all upset about her bf. Her bf is A, A is H's best friend, H is L's daughter. Hence the circles. CH wants to kill A because she is jealous of H. H broke up with her bf (it's about time), so she wants to rant and have some alone time with A. Which of course pissed CH right off. CH wants to dump, A, H has dumped hers and I want to dump bf..... Funny how soon a circle dissolves.
So one of my sisters, CH calls me today all upset about her bf. Her bf is A, A is H's best friend, H is L's daughter. Hence the circles. CH wants to kill A because she is jealous of H. H broke up with her bf (it's about time), so she wants to rant and have some alone time with A. Which of course pissed CH right off. CH wants to dump, A, H has dumped hers and I want to dump bf..... Funny how soon a circle dissolves.
4/20/2006
Update on "The Talk"
So it has been nearly a week since bf and I had "the talk". I have seen him twice, he has called me many times (see he didn't comprehend "the talk"). I think I scared him cuz the messages he left on Sunday sounded like it. He appologized like every 30 seconds for calling. Christ!!!!!! So we decided to go to a movie tonight. He really wanted to take me to Scary Movie 4... I didn't have the heart to tell him that I had taken the girls on Sunday. So I endured another 83 minutes of SM4. Then he decided to take me for a drive (at least I didn't have to plan it). So he took me to the top of the plateau. I love the view but he kept going on like I had never seen it... so again don't have the heart to tell him that I've seen it umpteen times. So we're sitting in this deserted area talking (we were talking.... see the attraction levels), and I remembered L telling me that if these issues (separate health issues) keep up there is a good chance I am/ will be anemic and that Guinness is a good source of iron. So I say speaking of Guinness I am really craving one (there you go L, I had my Guinness for today). So we head down to the pub where I check on a work project that I am collabing with the bar manager (bm) on, talk to W about going out on Sat cuz she wanted to, then M (you're awesome, M) and I had a chat about the status of bf and I while bf and bm are going off about cars. So I tell M about the Love conversation. At least I am gaining people on my side. Most people thought I was insane when I first told them. The bf and I are talking and he tells me that I am the best thing that has happened to him! Ok slow this ride right fucking down. I told him about my commitment phobic issues and he goes and says something stupid like that!?!?!!! I am vain enough to be flattered but also (ssh don't tell anyone... a dhat convo) insecure enough (and wanting to get out enough) to tell him that I am not and will never be the best thing to happen to him. Then I changed the subject. I was about to tell him about how bitchy I was to previous exs. Being the dumper in the majority of the situations comes in handy at times. Unfortunatly I still haven't dumped him... and M and I have to talk about this further. If only I can get to the pub without bf joining.
So it has been nearly a week since bf and I had "the talk". I have seen him twice, he has called me many times (see he didn't comprehend "the talk"). I think I scared him cuz the messages he left on Sunday sounded like it. He appologized like every 30 seconds for calling. Christ!!!!!! So we decided to go to a movie tonight. He really wanted to take me to Scary Movie 4... I didn't have the heart to tell him that I had taken the girls on Sunday. So I endured another 83 minutes of SM4. Then he decided to take me for a drive (at least I didn't have to plan it). So he took me to the top of the plateau. I love the view but he kept going on like I had never seen it... so again don't have the heart to tell him that I've seen it umpteen times. So we're sitting in this deserted area talking (we were talking.... see the attraction levels), and I remembered L telling me that if these issues (separate health issues) keep up there is a good chance I am/ will be anemic and that Guinness is a good source of iron. So I say speaking of Guinness I am really craving one (there you go L, I had my Guinness for today). So we head down to the pub where I check on a work project that I am collabing with the bar manager (bm) on, talk to W about going out on Sat cuz she wanted to, then M (you're awesome, M) and I had a chat about the status of bf and I while bf and bm are going off about cars. So I tell M about the Love conversation. At least I am gaining people on my side. Most people thought I was insane when I first told them. The bf and I are talking and he tells me that I am the best thing that has happened to him! Ok slow this ride right fucking down. I told him about my commitment phobic issues and he goes and says something stupid like that!?!?!!! I am vain enough to be flattered but also (ssh don't tell anyone... a dhat convo) insecure enough (and wanting to get out enough) to tell him that I am not and will never be the best thing to happen to him. Then I changed the subject. I was about to tell him about how bitchy I was to previous exs. Being the dumper in the majority of the situations comes in handy at times. Unfortunatly I still haven't dumped him... and M and I have to talk about this further. If only I can get to the pub without bf joining.
4/17/2006
Movie Review: Scary Movie 4
Saw Scary Movie 4 yesterday. Such a waste of money. The best part was when the cops came to escort someone out of the theatre, and I missed that cuz I was actually paying attention to the movie for some weird reason. This movie spoofs Saw and War of the Worlds. Having never seen either of those I was beyond bored the whole time. There were a couple funny parts, the Shaq and Dr. Phil one the best. Of course that was also the 1st scene. Bottom line: Don't waste your money!!!
Saw Scary Movie 4 yesterday. Such a waste of money. The best part was when the cops came to escort someone out of the theatre, and I missed that cuz I was actually paying attention to the movie for some weird reason. This movie spoofs Saw and War of the Worlds. Having never seen either of those I was beyond bored the whole time. There were a couple funny parts, the Shaq and Dr. Phil one the best. Of course that was also the 1st scene. Bottom line: Don't waste your money!!!
More Randoms
So this is another of those random blogs just to satisfy that I haven't blogged in awhile. Staying at my cousins right now cuz my aunt and unlce are in Vegas. Ignored bfs calls yesterday... told him not to call. I think he's afraid of me cuz he stuttered and appologized several times for calling. Went back to work today :( Was actually looking foreward to going back cuz I was so bored but after being there... UGH. I swear I am never leaving again. I come back and the enitre place (even the drawers) looked like a freaking bomb went off. There was crap everywhere. And they cut hours so there is no one there all day tomorrow until I come back on Wednesday!! It's going to be scary.
So this is another of those random blogs just to satisfy that I haven't blogged in awhile. Staying at my cousins right now cuz my aunt and unlce are in Vegas. Ignored bfs calls yesterday... told him not to call. I think he's afraid of me cuz he stuttered and appologized several times for calling. Went back to work today :( Was actually looking foreward to going back cuz I was so bored but after being there... UGH. I swear I am never leaving again. I come back and the enitre place (even the drawers) looked like a freaking bomb went off. There was crap everywhere. And they cut hours so there is no one there all day tomorrow until I come back on Wednesday!! It's going to be scary.
4/13/2006
The Talk
Those two words that make most people elated and many of us cringe. For me it was the cringing part, but I think bf took it a lot harder than I did. Of course he really didn't have a choice since I did most of the talking... ok all of the talking. I still don't think that he really grasped what I was saying. Most guys I know would to one of two things.
1. They would tell me that I am a bitch and leave (kind of what I hoped for... wait what am I saying, I am always the one who does the dumping)
Those two words that make most people elated and many of us cringe. For me it was the cringing part, but I think bf took it a lot harder than I did. Of course he really didn't have a choice since I did most of the talking... ok all of the talking. I still don't think that he really grasped what I was saying. Most guys I know would to one of two things.
1. They would tell me that I am a bitch and leave (kind of what I hoped for... wait what am I saying, I am always the one who does the dumping)
or
2. They would say oh thank God, I can drop the act.
A friend of mine has a friend (P) who runs a Queer Eye kind of business. He said that the only time guys tell you they love you at this point they only want one thing. Well no shit I am not that fucking naive. However this is ME!!!! If you want to get me in bed, don't ever say I love you!!! That will make me run so fast the other way (see previous posts).
So bf just appologized for everything, called me Sweetheart again and told me I am not a bitch. Probably a good thing that he hasn't read my blog.
Update
If we have supposedly resolved these (ok my) issues why do I feel like we got no where and feel worse now than before we had 'the talk'?
4/12/2006
One Hit Wonders of the Ninties
Who doesn't love to hear their favourite songs of years ago? Yes some of them we hear and wonder what the hell we were thinking, but most bring back some awesome memories. I recently read a review from someone who heard Harvey Danger's Flagpole Citta. Totally awesome song... but then this person went on to critique the Divynls Touch Myself, and Chumbawumba's Tubthumping. I mean who doesn't go back to where ever they were when they first heard one of these. For Flagpole Cita I was with friends at Playland chillin on a hot summer day on the Wave Singer. Who doesn't hear the songs and think, really how paranoid is Harvey Danger, what part of herself is Christina touching now, and what the hell does Tubthumping really mean? Crappy songs or not everyone still has something to say about them. Personally I am a fan of crappy, cheesy 80s and 90s one hit wonders.
Who doesn't love to hear their favourite songs of years ago? Yes some of them we hear and wonder what the hell we were thinking, but most bring back some awesome memories. I recently read a review from someone who heard Harvey Danger's Flagpole Citta. Totally awesome song... but then this person went on to critique the Divynls Touch Myself, and Chumbawumba's Tubthumping. I mean who doesn't go back to where ever they were when they first heard one of these. For Flagpole Cita I was with friends at Playland chillin on a hot summer day on the Wave Singer. Who doesn't hear the songs and think, really how paranoid is Harvey Danger, what part of herself is Christina touching now, and what the hell does Tubthumping really mean? Crappy songs or not everyone still has something to say about them. Personally I am a fan of crappy, cheesy 80s and 90s one hit wonders.
Product Review: Esscents Lip Balm in Lime Flavour
OMG this is absolutely amazing. It goes on so silky smooth and hours later it is still going strong. It doesn't give the glassed over look, just some subtle shine and it conditions to the max!!! It is like heaven for your lips. Seriously if you can get some. Find it at Essecents stores throughout the Lower Mainland.
OMG this is absolutely amazing. It goes on so silky smooth and hours later it is still going strong. It doesn't give the glassed over look, just some subtle shine and it conditions to the max!!! It is like heaven for your lips. Seriously if you can get some. Find it at Essecents stores throughout the Lower Mainland.
Sports Freak
Ok I have to admit, I love sports. I am very particular though... how can they devote an entire channel to golf??? Seriously, golf? I love to play baseball but watch it, no not so much. But I love the Yankees. The Yankees who have had their best opener since 1989 and yet they are still in last place in the East Division?!? What the hell is going on here? Does anyone else see a problem with this?
And on that note... how bout those Canucks? They never do well under pressure but they started out well but cracked at the end. 30 seconds into ot San Jose scores??? All they needed was one goal. Where the hell were the top scorers? Nazzy, Bert, Carter, Sedins??? Someone, is there anyone there? I love my Canucks don't get me wrong but when they blow 2-0 leads in games that they know they have to win, well what can I say?
Ok I have to admit, I love sports. I am very particular though... how can they devote an entire channel to golf??? Seriously, golf? I love to play baseball but watch it, no not so much. But I love the Yankees. The Yankees who have had their best opener since 1989 and yet they are still in last place in the East Division?!? What the hell is going on here? Does anyone else see a problem with this?
And on that note... how bout those Canucks? They never do well under pressure but they started out well but cracked at the end. 30 seconds into ot San Jose scores??? All they needed was one goal. Where the hell were the top scorers? Nazzy, Bert, Carter, Sedins??? Someone, is there anyone there? I love my Canucks don't get me wrong but when they blow 2-0 leads in games that they know they have to win, well what can I say?
CMT
I have to say how much I really love CMT!! I am currently on my 3rd cup of coffee, studying for the hated exam and watching the CMT Awards. Kenny Chesney is performing now :) Since I tuned in halfway through I have seen Faith Hill, Gretchen Wilson, Sugarland and a couple more. PS Kenny if you are reading this I will have another beer with you in Mexico!!!
I have to say how much I really love CMT!! I am currently on my 3rd cup of coffee, studying for the hated exam and watching the CMT Awards. Kenny Chesney is performing now :) Since I tuned in halfway through I have seen Faith Hill, Gretchen Wilson, Sugarland and a couple more. PS Kenny if you are reading this I will have another beer with you in Mexico!!!
Horoscopes
I will admit to being a dork and having my horoscope emailed to me everyday. So todays tells me to seek advice on a problem I have been having from an elder. It doesn't say who at first. So LC (an elder in a way, well she is forty-something) knows about my situation with bf. She keeps telling me to talk to him. I have slightly discounted this, but haven't entirely seeings how I am going to have "the talk" with bf on Thursday (more to come Thurs night or Fri morning). Horoscope mentions that I have discounted this person's advice in the past but to really listen to it. So should I meet LC for lunch tomorrow and ask advice, or just let it go? Later in the horoscope it also mentions a parent. My Mom, my Dad??? All they know is that I am seeing someone new. Do I explain the whole situation to one of them? See if they think I am crazy just like everyone else? My mom will prob think I am crazy "You finally found a decent guy and you are considering ending it already? You are never going to find anyone!" But then again that is basically what LC said. Keep in mind bf is tight with LC's hubby. I don't know what to do.
I will admit to being a dork and having my horoscope emailed to me everyday. So todays tells me to seek advice on a problem I have been having from an elder. It doesn't say who at first. So LC (an elder in a way, well she is forty-something) knows about my situation with bf. She keeps telling me to talk to him. I have slightly discounted this, but haven't entirely seeings how I am going to have "the talk" with bf on Thursday (more to come Thurs night or Fri morning). Horoscope mentions that I have discounted this person's advice in the past but to really listen to it. So should I meet LC for lunch tomorrow and ask advice, or just let it go? Later in the horoscope it also mentions a parent. My Mom, my Dad??? All they know is that I am seeing someone new. Do I explain the whole situation to one of them? See if they think I am crazy just like everyone else? My mom will prob think I am crazy "You finally found a decent guy and you are considering ending it already? You are never going to find anyone!" But then again that is basically what LC said. Keep in mind bf is tight with LC's hubby. I don't know what to do.
Randomness
So this entry is designated as an entire entry of randoms
Random Fact #1
Most people's blogs are rants about work/school. Why does everyone feel the need to do this? I guess the only reason I haven't felt this need is because I haven't been at work since Friday. I'm so freaking bored, holidays suck when you don't have the money to actually go any where.
Random Fact #2
When one has a problem, all have problems. There is just no escaping it. It is like a chain reaction. C has bf troubles, then EZ, then me, now K has bf troubles. Dominos anyone?
Random Fact #3
Newspapers are simply not comparable. I have a subscription to the Province (yes I know it is one step up from a gossip magazine). So Monday I read the Province and then bought a USA Today. Not comparable at all. Keep meaning to see how NYT compares but can just never get up early enough to get a copy before they sell out. Must be pretty good then.
Random Fact #4
Hate, hate, hate exams. Anthro exam tomorrow, been studying all week. Yeah I know horrible way to spend holidays. Why does there need to be an essay that ties together the central themes of the course? I know it is actually about the only decent exam question (this is 3 years of college talking, and yes it is the only q that actually demonstrates that something was actually learned). But seriously in a course where the instructors lectures are the most illogically strung together rants about cultures how the hell is anyone supposed to find a central theme?????
Random Fact #5
I just blogged a random rant about school..... see random fact #1.
So this entry is designated as an entire entry of randoms
Random Fact #1
Most people's blogs are rants about work/school. Why does everyone feel the need to do this? I guess the only reason I haven't felt this need is because I haven't been at work since Friday. I'm so freaking bored, holidays suck when you don't have the money to actually go any where.
Random Fact #2
When one has a problem, all have problems. There is just no escaping it. It is like a chain reaction. C has bf troubles, then EZ, then me, now K has bf troubles. Dominos anyone?
Random Fact #3
Newspapers are simply not comparable. I have a subscription to the Province (yes I know it is one step up from a gossip magazine). So Monday I read the Province and then bought a USA Today. Not comparable at all. Keep meaning to see how NYT compares but can just never get up early enough to get a copy before they sell out. Must be pretty good then.
Random Fact #4
Hate, hate, hate exams. Anthro exam tomorrow, been studying all week. Yeah I know horrible way to spend holidays. Why does there need to be an essay that ties together the central themes of the course? I know it is actually about the only decent exam question (this is 3 years of college talking, and yes it is the only q that actually demonstrates that something was actually learned). But seriously in a course where the instructors lectures are the most illogically strung together rants about cultures how the hell is anyone supposed to find a central theme?????
Random Fact #5
I just blogged a random rant about school..... see random fact #1.
4/10/2006
BF Troubles
So I'm on the phone with bf right now. Yeah still the same one who 2 days ago said he loves me. He is driving me crazy!!! He has left me 3 messages (I turned off my cell Saturday night see the MIA comment in previous post) about how much he loves me and misses me. Normally this wouldn't phase me, but it has been just 3 weeks since we started dating. By the way we only knew each other for 1 week before we started dating.
So last night I got really drunk (yet again) and cheated on him. I feel horrible, though the bitchy part of me is thinking good riddance. The bitchy part of me is starting to win over. Had I only met him last weekend he would have been a one night stand. Fuck and chuck
So I'm on the phone with bf right now. Yeah still the same one who 2 days ago said he loves me. He is driving me crazy!!! He has left me 3 messages (I turned off my cell Saturday night see the MIA comment in previous post) about how much he loves me and misses me. Normally this wouldn't phase me, but it has been just 3 weeks since we started dating. By the way we only knew each other for 1 week before we started dating.
So last night I got really drunk (yet again) and cheated on him. I feel horrible, though the bitchy part of me is thinking good riddance. The bitchy part of me is starting to win over. Had I only met him last weekend he would have been a one night stand. Fuck and chuck
4/09/2006
Love
When do you fall in love with a person? When is the right time in a relationship to mention the "L" word? Is there rules about this kind of stuff? Who the hell knows. Personally I don't think that love should be mentioned for a least a year. But then again I am also the female, real life equivalent of Chandler Bing. So when bf mentioned love after 3 weeks, I went completely insane. Last night he left me a message to let me know that he got home ok and that he loves me. Keep in mind our 1 month is not for another week. Hello, creepy. He thinks I am a sweetheart, I've tried to convince him that I am a cynical bitch. I think this is what we faught about at the pub last night. All of my friend's think it is cute. My roomate even jumped up and down and clapped when I told her. My boss thinks I am insane, but she is partial to both of us, she introduced us. She keeps telling me that I need to talk to him. So what do I say? Every time you give me the puppy dog look, I want to tell you to fuck off. Every time I hear you utter sweetheart or love I want to run as fast as I can the opposite way. All I wanted was to have some fun and some casual sex. Is that too much to ask?
When do you fall in love with a person? When is the right time in a relationship to mention the "L" word? Is there rules about this kind of stuff? Who the hell knows. Personally I don't think that love should be mentioned for a least a year. But then again I am also the female, real life equivalent of Chandler Bing. So when bf mentioned love after 3 weeks, I went completely insane. Last night he left me a message to let me know that he got home ok and that he loves me. Keep in mind our 1 month is not for another week. Hello, creepy. He thinks I am a sweetheart, I've tried to convince him that I am a cynical bitch. I think this is what we faught about at the pub last night. All of my friend's think it is cute. My roomate even jumped up and down and clapped when I told her. My boss thinks I am insane, but she is partial to both of us, she introduced us. She keeps telling me that I need to talk to him. So what do I say? Every time you give me the puppy dog look, I want to tell you to fuck off. Every time I hear you utter sweetheart or love I want to run as fast as I can the opposite way. All I wanted was to have some fun and some casual sex. Is that too much to ask?
Parties
So for the third weekend in a row I spent Saturday night at the pub getting wasted. This is the first weekend that I paid the bill. For myself alone, $95 and I didn't even eat. This is really so not me. While everyone else is there getting drunk, I watch them make fools of themselves and then drive their drunk asses home at the end of the night. This night it was me. I drove my own car home around 10:30 and a friend followed me home and drove me all the way back to the pub where I proceeded to "catch up" to everyone else. Several hours later I drunk dialed my sister who was in White Rock at her bf's and she came to pick up my drunk ass. From there I got stuck half under my bed, crawled from there down the hall to my bathroom where I laid in front of the toilet until my drunk roomate came home. When she got home I crawled back to the floor in front of my bed where she tied my hair back "just in case". Somehow I managed to get my jeans off but not my socks, and crawl into bed wearing the same shirt, socks and underwear. This was all fot the surprise party for LC. LC was so drunk she left at like 11:30, which left me, bf, daughter and daughter's bf. Daughter and bf got in a fight, I think bf and I got in a fight, then while my bf and daughter were talking, I think I picked a fight with dbf about him driving her home cuz he was really drunk. Apparently everyone made it home safe and sound and bf loves me?!?
So for the third weekend in a row I spent Saturday night at the pub getting wasted. This is the first weekend that I paid the bill. For myself alone, $95 and I didn't even eat. This is really so not me. While everyone else is there getting drunk, I watch them make fools of themselves and then drive their drunk asses home at the end of the night. This night it was me. I drove my own car home around 10:30 and a friend followed me home and drove me all the way back to the pub where I proceeded to "catch up" to everyone else. Several hours later I drunk dialed my sister who was in White Rock at her bf's and she came to pick up my drunk ass. From there I got stuck half under my bed, crawled from there down the hall to my bathroom where I laid in front of the toilet until my drunk roomate came home. When she got home I crawled back to the floor in front of my bed where she tied my hair back "just in case". Somehow I managed to get my jeans off but not my socks, and crawl into bed wearing the same shirt, socks and underwear. This was all fot the surprise party for LC. LC was so drunk she left at like 11:30, which left me, bf, daughter and daughter's bf. Daughter and bf got in a fight, I think bf and I got in a fight, then while my bf and daughter were talking, I think I picked a fight with dbf about him driving her home cuz he was really drunk. Apparently everyone made it home safe and sound and bf loves me?!?
4/07/2006
Self Confidence and the Beast Known as Insecurity
A good friend of mine once told me that the reason I can't seem to find the "Mr. Right" is because I am too confident and scare men away. I am starting to think that this can be applied to people in general. Why are so many people so insecure. I mean it is becoming a freaking phenomena!!! For example, LC is not a small person, but is by noooo means fat. Does she think this? Not a freaking chance. I was out with J tonight and wore my glasses. We got on that subject and I took them off and told him (he was sitting accross a Starbucks table from me) that without them I couldn't see his face. What does he say? "Then you don't have to look at my ugly face." Come on get some confidence.
That being said, I still have my many insecure moments. A lot of the time I still see an awkward 13 year old with braces and glasses and long frizzy curls. Instead of letting other people see this person, I tell Insecutiry (it is going to have its own personality now) to kiss my ass and move on with my day. If I don't think that I can do something I do the same thing and then go and do whatever it is that needed to be done. Am the only person who thinks this way? From the sounds of it I am.
Thanks to Opionionista for the following quote " Thanks for sharing; now kindly get the fuck out of my way." This is Opinionista's answer to people who tell her she is going to fail. This is what every person should say to that personality known as Insecurity. If you can't sell you to yourself who the hell else are you going to be able to sell yourself to? If you don't believe in yourself no one else will. So the next time Insecurity pops up, tell it to get the fuck out of your way and move on with your day, because most of you are smart, beautiful, and successful people who really are a lot better than you think!
A good friend of mine once told me that the reason I can't seem to find the "Mr. Right" is because I am too confident and scare men away. I am starting to think that this can be applied to people in general. Why are so many people so insecure. I mean it is becoming a freaking phenomena!!! For example, LC is not a small person, but is by noooo means fat. Does she think this? Not a freaking chance. I was out with J tonight and wore my glasses. We got on that subject and I took them off and told him (he was sitting accross a Starbucks table from me) that without them I couldn't see his face. What does he say? "Then you don't have to look at my ugly face." Come on get some confidence.
That being said, I still have my many insecure moments. A lot of the time I still see an awkward 13 year old with braces and glasses and long frizzy curls. Instead of letting other people see this person, I tell Insecutiry (it is going to have its own personality now) to kiss my ass and move on with my day. If I don't think that I can do something I do the same thing and then go and do whatever it is that needed to be done. Am the only person who thinks this way? From the sounds of it I am.
Thanks to Opionionista for the following quote " Thanks for sharing; now kindly get the fuck out of my way." This is Opinionista's answer to people who tell her she is going to fail. This is what every person should say to that personality known as Insecurity. If you can't sell you to yourself who the hell else are you going to be able to sell yourself to? If you don't believe in yourself no one else will. So the next time Insecurity pops up, tell it to get the fuck out of your way and move on with your day, because most of you are smart, beautiful, and successful people who really are a lot better than you think!
Planning
So here I am about 3 weeks ago thinking I am going to plan a surprise party for a friend's birthday. So I check with her husband and he says go for it, he can get her there but to do it the week after. Ok fine no problem. Being the 'nice' person I am, I decided to ask her kid if she wanted to help. So she says yeah, she thinks it is an awesome idea. Fast foreward to 2 days before the party. Daughter's friend askes me if I am coming to the party. I'm stunned going of course I'm freaking coming, I planned the damn thing!! All daughter had to do was invite and get the cake. I invited and 2 days before the party daughter still hadn't ordered the cake. The next day, daughter and I fight about the cake. Of course I was in a really bad mood cuz I had just left work, hadn't heard from daughter about ordering the cake and had gotten my period for the second time this month. So now I am extremely pissed off at just about everyone in general and realize I have to go to this party with bf (who is currently driving me insane) and be civil (no not even civil... nice). I am a bitch. No beating around the bush, I am a bitch. Bf still doesn't believe this, what the hell do I have to do to convince the man????
So here I am about 3 weeks ago thinking I am going to plan a surprise party for a friend's birthday. So I check with her husband and he says go for it, he can get her there but to do it the week after. Ok fine no problem. Being the 'nice' person I am, I decided to ask her kid if she wanted to help. So she says yeah, she thinks it is an awesome idea. Fast foreward to 2 days before the party. Daughter's friend askes me if I am coming to the party. I'm stunned going of course I'm freaking coming, I planned the damn thing!! All daughter had to do was invite and get the cake. I invited and 2 days before the party daughter still hadn't ordered the cake. The next day, daughter and I fight about the cake. Of course I was in a really bad mood cuz I had just left work, hadn't heard from daughter about ordering the cake and had gotten my period for the second time this month. So now I am extremely pissed off at just about everyone in general and realize I have to go to this party with bf (who is currently driving me insane) and be civil (no not even civil... nice). I am a bitch. No beating around the bush, I am a bitch. Bf still doesn't believe this, what the hell do I have to do to convince the man????
4/06/2006
Circles
Ok I know this might start to sound like the over-the-top-corny Elton John song "Circle of Life" from the Lion King but lately I have noticed it to be so true. It all started when L started as my boss. L and I had worked together before, but never in this situation. I slightly knew L's hubby, FB from Xmas parties and fundraisers and all that shit. L and I became really close, then L, FB and I started hanging out at the pub after work. FB goes out of town, L decides that her, her daughter H and I should go to the pub. Ok, sure works for me. On several of these pub trips I have noticed R coming in particularily on the nights where FB comes late. This prompts FB and L to do some matchmaking. Matchmaking complete R becomes known as BF. So for my bday, EZ (another friend of mine) plans a bash at the pub. I randomly tell just about everyone I know to come down including BF, L, FB and H and H's BF. H brings a buddy (E). E and my buddy Y hook up. Ok now there is just one big ass circle with L and FB right smack in the middle. To top it of I start having probs with BF who happens to be really good friends with FB. So i tell L about it, feeling horrible. Next thing I know, H is calling E and bitching, Y is attacking me and EZ and I are stuck somewhere in the thick of it all. I really think that no one should ever mix friends. I mean I thought this before but now I am seriously convinced of it. This past week has been hell. To top it all of it was L's bday, H and I are trying to plan a surprise party for her and everyone has to get along. OMG I can't even keep track anymore. Next week I am on holidays and plan on being MIA. Will keep everyone posted about how L's party turns out though.
Ok I know this might start to sound like the over-the-top-corny Elton John song "Circle of Life" from the Lion King but lately I have noticed it to be so true. It all started when L started as my boss. L and I had worked together before, but never in this situation. I slightly knew L's hubby, FB from Xmas parties and fundraisers and all that shit. L and I became really close, then L, FB and I started hanging out at the pub after work. FB goes out of town, L decides that her, her daughter H and I should go to the pub. Ok, sure works for me. On several of these pub trips I have noticed R coming in particularily on the nights where FB comes late. This prompts FB and L to do some matchmaking. Matchmaking complete R becomes known as BF. So for my bday, EZ (another friend of mine) plans a bash at the pub. I randomly tell just about everyone I know to come down including BF, L, FB and H and H's BF. H brings a buddy (E). E and my buddy Y hook up. Ok now there is just one big ass circle with L and FB right smack in the middle. To top it of I start having probs with BF who happens to be really good friends with FB. So i tell L about it, feeling horrible. Next thing I know, H is calling E and bitching, Y is attacking me and EZ and I are stuck somewhere in the thick of it all. I really think that no one should ever mix friends. I mean I thought this before but now I am seriously convinced of it. This past week has been hell. To top it all of it was L's bday, H and I are trying to plan a surprise party for her and everyone has to get along. OMG I can't even keep track anymore. Next week I am on holidays and plan on being MIA. Will keep everyone posted about how L's party turns out though.
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